Art Journey

As a person with a full time job now, it feels like I am heading into a direction in life that I am super unsatisfied with. Before, when in high school, I used to tell myself that the only thing I'm actually good at and enjoy is art.

So now as an "adult" I look back at those times and wonder..."what changed?"

Was it my drive to reach this goal that I had made for myself?

The passion that I once had to create even when I was sleepy?

Did I lose sight of what I wanted to do?

I also look over at friends who also do art and have conventions, commission, and sell their art and think "If they can do that what is stopping me from doing it?"

The obvious answer is MYSELF.

At 1st my thought about getting a job was to make enough money to sell art and go to conventions. My goal was clear then but, of course, somewhere along the way I became a slave to what was meant to just become an aid to reach my goal.

I stopped dreaming, stopped creating, got super sad, and even lost myself.

I bought many self help books at the time that had lightened the blow for a while but I still felt lost.

There were some things, in retrospect, that didn't help like insecurity, anxiety, etc.. The usual things everyone deals with really. I just wanted to reignite that spark once more.

I know that I love art making, as when I was given the amazing opportunity to intern as a storyboard artist. I did not know how to storyboard as I only had a trimester in university about it but it was a fun experience for sure. I felt super under qualified and not at all confident in myself. The time crunch was insane. We were even told that they knew it wasn't enough time to get a whole scene finished, and to not work overtime, but....I just couldn't not stop myself from doing it as I was enjoying ever single second of it.

I was given an opportunity to join a new world and see things in a different light. I loved coming in, drawing my butt off for a goal, clocking out after getting feedback, and just working on another project of my own.

So my goal with these blogs are to try to get down to the nitty gritty and igniting that flame once more!

So if anyone is reading this. Please come join me on this art journey!!